Book 60 of 500!

This book was recommended to me by Pastor Paula. It was called I’m Grieving as Fast as I can by Linda Feinberg. It was more geared towards people who lost there spouse, but man I just really like that title. And there were still good things in it even for me. I did give it to my dad, I hope he will take the time to read it, or at least scan through it. I like the title because I feel like people expect me to be over it already, and that I’m supposed to just be ok that my mom is dead. I also hate it when people tell me that I am doing better. NO I AM NOT! But what am I supposed to do? Lay in bed and never move? (Even though I’d like to!). I have to go to work, and I have to be somewhat nice when I’m there, I can’t just mope around, it’s not what is expected of me. But just because I am apparently a really good actress, does not mean I am miraculously all better! Guess what? I never will be! My life has changed forever, but not for the better, for the worse. I am a completely different person that I was before this happened. I will never be ok, so stop assuming that I am. Ok, I obviously felt like I needed to rant, so guess this post is done……