I really didn’t think this year could get any worse. I mean how could it? My mom had already died, what else could happen right? Well more bad things were possible, and another horrible thing did happen. My 19 year old baby kitty Frisky died…. (the only comfort I have is picturing my mom waiting in Heaven as Frisky made his way, and then I see him running up to my mom and her picking him up and sitting in her favorite rocking chair, petting Frisky……) Anyways it was Friday May 25 and I was taking a 1/2 day, because that evening Darrell, dad and me were going camping in Wisconsin. My alarm was set for 6:30am, and my phone rang like 2 minutes before my alarm was to go off, I yelled at my dad for waking me up, but I should have known it was going to be something bad or else he wouldn’t have been calling. He said Frisky sounded really bad and he thought we might have to put him down that day. He was still trying to talk me into going to work, but I said no, so I called off, showered, got dressed and then drove to Bensenville. Thank goodness I went when I did. Although I still feel guilty because I didn’t go right to Frisky. I went in the house, petted Oreo and Pepper, let them on the porch. Then I went upstairs, and petted Frisky in his box. I really had to go to the bathroom so I took the time to do that, then I could hear poor Frisky’s breathing, it scared me so I called my dad who was at work, he said just go hold him. Well I was too scared to pick him up, so I took the top off his house, and carried him downstairs like that, I went out onto the porch and sat on a chair with him. The sun was shining on him, and I saw him stretch his back legs, and his mouth opened ever so slightly, I put my ear by his mouth and didn’t hear anything. I looked at him, and I realized he was gone….. he had just died. I seriously just made it. It’s nice to think maybe he waited for me, but I wish I had spent a couple more minutes with him instead of doing all the other things I did first, it seems my selfishness is just endless, and I never realized just how bad I was until my mom died and then Frisky…. Will I ever learn? Then I had to go camping that weekend not only without mom but without Frisky too. He was such a good kitty, and it was the best 19 years I ever had. I miss him so much and love him to death! I hope my mom and Frisky are together in Heaven. That’s all I have left, are these hopes that I will get to see them again. I feel like my whole family is going to die this year. I can only  hope that 2012 really is the end of the world, that way I don’t have to endure this pain much longer….
Here are a couple pictures in honor of my beautiful baby kitty, Frisky “Skins”. RIP Frikky!
